So today is my Birthday I am 26 years old. It's 12:15am and I think I was born at 5:00am so it's not really my birthday yet but close enough. I was thinking about what my mom was going through at this time 26 years ago and how she was feeling but now having babies of my own I know the experience is horrible and yet so so beautiful. I was also thinking about what I was doing last year, I was working and pregnant. I took the week off work and got to spend the week with Logan. My relationship with Shawn was struggling because I was upset about putting Logan in daycare and I blamed him for having to go back to work. I am happy to say Shawn and I are doing really well, I know I'm really happy and very much in love. When it's my birthday (or any special occasion) I always think about how my mom made me feel like the most important person and naturally I thought that Shawn should also do the same. Shawn does make me feel special but he doesn't do anything extra on my birthday. I usually don't get a present (might get a card) we will do something only if I plan it. So anyway I always feel very disappointed. I'm tired of being disappointed, why should I expect others to serve me. It's going to be hard but this year I want to focus on all the things I'm grateful for and making sure those people who make my life so wonderful know it after being with me on my birthday. I will always remember the first Birthday Shawn and I spent together it was Shawn's birthday and we had been dating only a month and we were eating dinner with his family and Shawn says "the best gift I could ever get was Amy". I was so horrified at the time but it's a really special memory. Today I want to do 26 (if not more) nice deeds for other people, family friends and strangers. I will let you know how I do.
Love,
Amy Beth
It's 12:00am on August 14. Yesterday (my birthday) I went to the beach with my sisters and they were all really sweet, Amanda made me a cake and Ashley and Amber gave me a card. I had a goal to do 26 nice things for people, I did a few nice things but did not reach 26. I also very sadly did not accomplish my goal to not be upset with Shawn. He left this morning at 7:00am and didn't get home until close to 7:00pm. I was just upset he didn't call me to let me know he would be getting home late but I guess I shouldn't be that surprised.
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