Aubrey will be 18 months in a few weeks and I still nurse her, she still wakes up once at night and I like it because I'm holding on to her being little. It makes me sad that I cant hold on to every memory, every moment. It has all been so wonderful. Sometimes I want to put a blanket on the floor of there room just so I can sleep with there peaceful spirits. To me there is nothing more beautiful then them. I love them so much it hurts.
I love the stage Logan and Aubrey are at right now, Logan is talking a lot and more interested in learning and Aubrey is starting to talk and understand me. Its fun to watch them interact together, One of Logan s favourite things to do it walk around and find a way to make Aubrey scream, sit on her, take a toy away, poke her. But then he can be the sweetest big brother, they share a room and if they wake up and I'm sleeping Logan will give her toys and sometimes food in her crib to make her happy. He tells me all the time how much he loves her, they love to give each-other hugs and kisses. Aubrey has started to hit and loves to go over to Logan (especially if he's sitting on my lap) and hit him. She always finds the time when he's upset or wants to be left alone, they already know how to get on each-others nerves. Aubrey likes Logan being around but really does not want me to spend any time hugging or holding him unless she is right on top of me.
We have now lived at Bridgeland place for almost 6 years, its hard to believe that much time has passed by! I feel like a different person, I used to feel like I knew who I was and now I have lost my identity a little. I love being a mom and wife but its also really hard to say that's all I do, I wish I could find a way to impact other people make a different outside my home.
